Even if I have twenty five years left on this Earth, I will never relive this period of time, for the emotions are not necessary in my new life. They hold no purpose, and contain no growth other than for now. Once I have learned my lessons and absorbed any good traits, I shall move on. The first half of my life is over, and there are new horizons to explore. I want the second half of life to count.
I have a great aunt who is ninety three, and one who is ninety five. I am fifty one. If I live to be anywhere near their ages, I have plenty of time to make my mark on this world. Up until now, I have gone through school, had three kids, and raised them in the best way I knew how. They are my pride and joy, and if I never do another thing, I will know that I have left three sensitive and loving adults to take up where I left off.
However, two of my three are on their own, and within a few years, so will my youngest. What then, will I do with my time? I've been on my own before, had my own apartment, paid my own bills, had my own corvette. That was twenty four years ago. What has changed since then? I lost my independence for those years, and I gladly took on that challenge and sacrifice. Now, I will be independent once more, no crying babies, no fighting kids, no snowsuits and car seats and bottles and changing diapers.
When it was happening, I thought it would never end, nor did I think Id ever get a full nights sleep, but twenty two years passed in what seems like the blink of an eye. I want to work on my writing, and possibly even write a book. That has been a dream of mine since I was a little girl. Could it really be my time now? My life after raising kids? That would be a book in itself.
My computer has become my best friend. Unfortunately, my handwriting has suffered miserably from lack of use. My computer is easier, faster, and I can save everything. I have a few things to take care of first, and then, I am going to travel my own road, with my needs being met. I love being a mom, but all the physical labor is done. Now, its time for me to do something with my own life. I may have been a mom for twenty two years, but now, I am a mom and a person, free to do whatever I find interesting to me. No lining up babysitters, no Halloween costumes to buy, no toys for Christmas to deal with, no wrapping sixty or so presents.
I did it all, the baseball and basketball games for years. Now, I'll see what I can do on my own, after I have my daily cry that my kids are grown!
Susan Thom is the mother of three children, two sons, 18 and 22, and a daughter 24. Writing calms her, and gives her a place to go by herself! Clears the head and gets it out. She lives in a rural area, with a lake and mountains, and her partner, and has loved writing since she was a child.
She certainly hopes you enjoy her take on life, and her style of communicating that in stories.
She has been on a journey of self discovery for twenty years, and has learned many things about the human mind, and how to maintain some semblance of calm and peace within.
If someone reads one of her stories, and relates to her feelings, and maybe gets a suggestion on how she dealt with them in a positive way, that would be the ultimate gift of her writing.
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