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Five months have gone by since Brenda's death. I still can't get my life started. I have an opportunity to start my business over again but it doesn't mean anything to me. Brenda is not around to go over my day, tell her my planes for the future and most of all ask how her day went.
I try spending time with her friends when they ask for me to join them. They have all been great to me, keeping in touch and showing their true concern about me. No matter who I am with I run home as soon as possible, to what even I don't know? I go through the door and lock it, there I sit until the next day arrives. Most of the time I spend upstairs in her old office on our grandkids rollout bed watching TV.
Lately I have been spending time with one of her girlfriends. We have gone out several times for diner. One Sunday we spent the whole day together. I felt very comfortable with her but guilty for felling that way. I fell that I don't have the right to feel good about anything let alone about being with another woman. I'm the one who should have died not Brenda; I was the one that was sick for 5 months. She was the one that made life joyful for others. She made people laugh in a way that no one else could. My life will never be the same but it will still be full of love for Brenda. She will be with me till the day I die.
I hope that sometime in the future there will be room in my life for someone else.
Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother, fantastic Grandmother and one hell of a woman, you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.
Help me keep Brenda's name alive
Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.
Thank you
Herb A Krantz
Children's Hospital of Philadelphia
Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp
St Jude
http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD
Stem Cell Research
Michael J Fox
http://www.michaeljfox.org/
Christopher reeve
http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm
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