Submitted by: Herb A(604) Herb A USA Marketing Solutions Log in to become a member of Herb A's Fan Club!
Two people in my family said they saw Brenda in their dreams. I face every night with the same want, to see Brenda in my dreams. See her face; look in to her bright green eyes. Through those eyes see a soul of a true angel. To hold her for one last time and feel her warmth next to me. Look at her smile and hear her laugh. To say goodbye and let her go. For as they say if you really love someone or thing you must let them go. Until I do I will never be able to move forward and until I say goodbye I will never let go.
I truly wish I could believe that Brenda and I will meet up again someday. We only get one time around that we remember. There is no here after. We will be running to each other with outstretched arms and as we reach each other I will lift her in my arms and kiss her again. That’s bull, only in the movies. I can only believe in the here and know.
My life, belief in my religion and god died when Brenda died. If sounds like I am mad it’s because I am.
I’m mad that I’m here and Brenda isn’t. I was supposed to die first and after being in the hospital with a ripped aorta that fact even makes it more so.
I’m mad because I don’t remember if I kissed Brenda goodbye and told her that I loved her as I usually did.
I’m mad because we got cheated out of all our years ahead of us.
I’m mad because there are to many questions about her death still to be answered.
I’m mad because I can’t move on with my life because Brenda’s death weighs too heavy on my soul.
I used to make people laugh and smile. I can’t do that anymore. I lost that too. One thing I have learned when you love someone as much as I loved Brenda and you lose him or her your life changes. It changes drastically for the worst. You heart hurts with a pain that is deep within your soul.
My family just celebrated Passover. It’s a holiday of the Jews freedom from their oppressors. I feel that I am still a prisoner of my oppressor –Death. I really didn’t feel like going this year but I did but left early. I just can’t keep my feelings in for long. The days usually end with me crying as I drive home.
I mad because Brenda wasn’t there this year.
Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.
Help me keep Brenda’s name alive
Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.
P.S. To Km Little B’s friend. I’m still writing and still alive not that I want to be. Thank's for caring.I love you for your support and I will always be just a phone call away if you need me.
» left by Creative Blogger(5,244) Creative Blogger (137 days 14 hours ago.)
Time to stop being Mad Herb and time to start being glad.
Glad that you were blessed for so many years with this wonderful love and relationship.
Many many people live their entire lives without this kind of love and have no precious memories, nothing at all to fondly look back on, just a lifetime of lonliness, regret and sadness.
Try to embrace what you had as an honour and a privilage rather than a gift that was given and then wrongfully taken away.
Nothing can ease your pain right now, but truley you were very blessed for many many years and even though your beloved Brenda is not around you remain blessed.
You have family and friends around you who love you. Again something many people never have yet you have in abundance.
I hope you soon begin to come to terms with your loss and find some comfort in these words.
» left by Herb A from Dreaher (135 days 19 hours ago.)
Thank you Leah. I hope you are right that I will soon appericatate what I had becuse I will never have it again. These day's are sre so tough. Everyday I feel that I don't want to face the next day to come but I have to for my daughter and grandkids. Thank you again for sharing your thoughts with me.
Disclaimer: All information on this site is
provided for informational purposes only! By no means is any
information presented herein intended to substitute for the advice
provided to you by any health care or other professional or
organization.
Ha Ha. 
