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For the past several months, God has been using me in a way that I
never thought possible. He has been bringing awesome opportunities in
my path and showing me how powerful He can really be in my life.
My confidence in the Lord has increased tremendously in the past 7
months and He has given me a voice on the Internet to help those in
need and bring His truth to people…hence this site. However, in the
past 2 months or so, pride started rising up in me. Let me give you an
example:
Last week, my husband and I were able to financially bless another
family in our church. We told the family ahead of time that we were
going to do this, but as I got to church, I went straight to one of our
pastors and told her that we were able to do this. I was so excited
about being able to help because we had been on the receiving end for
such a long time and finally we are in the position of being able to
help someone else. Although, at the time, I saw it as being excited,
afterwards, I realized that this was a very prideful thing to do. I was
looking for praise in doing this deed. This was not good at all.
A few days later, I was able to help someone else with a task and I
was telling everyone about it. How "I" was able to get this done.
PRIDE! uugghh! Man…I was hoping to be over that. I guess sometimes it
takes me a while to figure things out.
So…this morning in church, I went up to the altar and I asked for
God's forgiveness regarding my pride. I asked Him if I was being
prideful in my walk with Him. If I was being prideful in other areas of
my life.
You see…ever since last November (2007), I have been on fire for
God. I have had some deep convictions, I have been wanting to research
several "false witnesses" and see how to avoid them and tell others of
them as well. I have been wanting so desperately to bring truth to
others…to get them to wake up and see what kind of state this world is
actually in. Many people are oblivious as to what is happening around
them.
So…I asked God this morning if this confidence, this fire for Him
was pride instead…at least in my heart. Well…I have to say that I came
away from that altar refreshed because He reminded me of where I was,
how I am now, how He had been able to transform my life since Fall of
last year and put that fire for Him in my heart. This, He said, was
confidence…not pride. A confidence in who He really is. A confidence in
the Living God…that He is real and alive in me.
Yes, I had a few instances of pride which I committed to Him and
asked for forgiveness…it is over. Now, all that is left is my
confidence in Him. Just because I hold my head high does not mean that
I am necessarily conceited or prideful, but that I am proud to be a
child of God.
So…what am I trying to say to you. That is the question. Well…you
need to make sure that when you do have prideful moments, bring them to
God. But, don't think that your confidence in God is anything other
than that….confidence. Now, if you have a conceited heart and are
basically a hypocrite where you seem to be on fire for God and your heart is in turmoil, then this is not what I am talking about.
I am talking about a true heart..dedicated to the Living God. Giving
Him all honor, glory, and praise. Giving Him your life…and I mean
everything. Not just some of it. Everything! Pride has no use in a true
believer's heart but confidence in God does. |
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