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I want to pull all my thoughts out of my mind and write about them. I want to know if maybe someone has the answers to the questions that swirl in my brain and keep me up at night. I want to know if others share the same beliefs and concepts on life and love and kids and relationships and God. I want those who suffer from depression to read my articles on the very condition I, too, suffer from, and maybe they can find a piece of advice or an example of what I have learned to do to keep the demons away.
I want those who think they may have a problem with drinking to catch a sentence that I've written on alcoholism, and know they should step outside of themselves and get help. I want those who have just lost a mother or father to see glimpses of their pain and heartache in my accounts of how I dealt with the death of my parents, and maybe get some relief. I want to give hope to those who wonder if angels really exist in the shadows, and how I feel they've helped me in my times of deep distress.
I want to share my ideas of a loving and caring God who is pulling for us all, and hoping we can figure out how to live in peace. I want those who won't leave their homes to read about the stories I have written on nature, and how pure and fascinating it is, just swinging on your front porch. Maybe they'll go out to see the beautiful roses coming into bloom, chipmunks scurrying to gather the seed before the birds wake up and come searching for their breakfast. I love to watch them flying. It initiates a feeling of freedom and peace within me. I marvel at the way they take a bath in our birdbath, and even get under their wings!
I want to tell everyone about a toad that comes to my front door every night around nine. He hangs out for about thirty minutes, I hold him, talk to him, and then he's gone until the next night. I want to explain about a spider web that is perfect in it's glorious form. I want to write about everything I know or have experienced. I want to mention books I have read on almost every subject of self help and spirituality in the hopes that someone else may receive the same rewards. I want to talk about my experiences with an autoimmune disease, and just what that means, and what one can do to improve it's affects on life.
I want to tell everyone about an eight pound little maltipoo, two years old, that has stolen my heart, and made me realize that innocence is the purest form of love. He understands and listens to everything I say. He brings wonder and excitement and happiness to my partner, my son, and myself. He doesn't know he lives a king's life, but he does. He visits me and takes naps in a bed by my computer. When he's done with that, he goes up and visits my son, lies on his bed, or lap, and hangs out, and then, it's off to dad's room, where all the treats are, and another soft bed that's all his. If I take a nap, or when it's time to go to bed, it's up to my room to sleep.
I want to write about my strengths and weaknesses. I want to share how I've overcome the obstacles that have come up in my life. Someone reading may be facing the same type of problems. I want to write about the problems kids face when they walk outside the walls of their childhood home, and have to figure out how to survive on their own. Maybe someone else's kids are going through the same rough road, between high prices and new pressures of rent, security, gas, car insurance and food, etc.
I want to write about all the loving and caring friends and family who have soothed my feelings of fear and frustration going through a divorce. I want to talk about evil, because I know it exists. I want to talk about love, because it is my saving grace. Loving my kids, my partner, his kids, my family, friends, and wonderful people I am Blessed to have met through this site. It is humbling to know that there still are people out there in this World who care.
I want to write in a way that people have something interesting to read. In the same way a singer wants to write a song people will love to listen to over and over. I listen to Elton John when I write. I first started listening to him in the 70's, and I'm still a huge fan. Every article I have written has been inspired by his music, and the words to his songs. Do CD's wear out? This may be the first.
I want to write about how I wish people would stop judging. It is not our place to do so. I have no idea where mankind ever got the idea that they could. Judge the crime, not the person. No one seems to be familiar with the fact that sometimes, our brains misfire, and cause us to do things we normally wouldn't do. The zero tolerance level needs to be explored. Patience and understanding and compassion are words that someone thought up, but they are rarely used in our society. That is, unless we are the ones who have done something wrong, and want forgiveness.
I want to write about how it feels to be so full of fear you don't know what to do, where to go, or who to talk to. I want to write about the power of God and angels and spirit guides that can and will help you, oddly enough, whether you ask or not. Asking and praying is helpful to you as a mortal, and makes you feel better, and passes time, but everyone spiritual is already helping you. I want to write about concepts I have developed and I have found to calm those panicky fears. I want to write to help myself, and others, and to take advantage of maybe a talent God gave to me, while others have their own distinct attributes. Yes, I want to write, and as long as there are ideas in my head, I believe I will continue.
i appreciate your comments. a lot of experience goes into my words, which also means a lot of pain, but at least i'm on the other side of most of it, and each experience changed me, and made me develop into someone who can write. i am truly Blessed, and i like my own writing, although, sometimes, rereading an article, as a matter of fact, most times, i don't recognize my own words, but i like them.
i hope i am an instrument God is using to get some messages across. that would make me happy.
Sue, you end this article with, "...Yes, I want to write, and as long as there are ideas in my head, I believe I will continue." Please continue; your writing has and will touch many because your gentle soul comes through each word you pen even when you are provoked by anger. It is a privilege to become associated with you and I will always look for your writings!
You really did it this time. This is fantastic writing and it shows how selfless you are in sharing your struggles so that others might gleam hope from what they're reading knowing that they are not alone in their trials. I've cried more today reading these articles. It's funny. My 7 year old walks in and wants to know why I'm sad...I'm happy...I'm just reading good stuff (didn't know what else to tell him)
My dear friend Sue-I think this is the best and I think you out did yourself. This is very inspirational--keep writing and sharing, there will always be those who agree and those who disagree, but that's what makes each of us unique and when we can share our ideas and our experiences, we just might connect with others and make some great friendships along the way. (hint-hint) love, t.
So beautiful Susan. Please keep it up. The good, bad and ugly of life creates the beautiful, strong/weak, broken, damaged, complex individuals that God choses for his service and it is obvious to me that he has chosen you. You have a gift and I am glad to be reading it. Thank you and God bless you.
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