I have been Blessed to believe in angels since I was a young child. Sitting in church with my parents and siblings, I always loved hearing about angels and the work they do. They may be invisible to the eye, but the soul and heart will know they are with us, if we are open and willing to accept them as guides for us to follow. They don't usually stay for more time than it takes to complete their mission. They may be with us for years for some problems, and seconds for others. The main intent is to set us on the right path and guide us when we falter. Of course, these are only my opinions and beliefs, I have only the proof of how certain people have worked in my life, and what they brought to it.
These certain entities usually come into our lives from out of the blue, and their personalities feel different than our relationships with others. There is more of a spiritual connection, a feeling that there is more to these guides than simply an Earthly friendship. There is a pull towards them, and a powerful feeling that they have come into our lives for a reason. We begin to realize that we are learning and changing, becoming calmer, and more spiritual. Usually, these people don't stay in our lives once their job is done. When I started going to twelve step meetings, there was a girl I gravitated to. I liked what she had to say, and I could see she was serious about her sobriety. I asked her to be my sponsor, and she agreed. We worked for hours on end with the information we read. This is where character flaws, or defects of character, came into play, and the most work occurred. I never knew about so many emotions and feelings and selfishness and change.
She was there for everything, phone calls of despair, coffee after the meetings at the diner to talk, visits to her home. She helped me figure out where my negativity was from, how to get rid of it, and how to rely on God for my salvation. I was thirty eight, she was twenty seven, and she started my world turning in a positive, and sober direction. I went to meetings for four and a half years, every night. She was a part of my life I relied upon and depended on. When my life circumstances changed, I stopped going to meetings, and she had changed her home group, and although she lives maybe five miles from me, I have never seen her since. She came into my life at a very difficult time, and helped me get rid of the past and get into the present, which had it's own set of problems, but at least, with many skeletons gone, I could come at them with a clean slate.
In my head, I cannot doubt that she was an angel, sent by God to help me find my way. When I had done so, our connection was no longer needed, and it ended. I went on, coping alone, but although I remained sober, problems caused me to be diagnosed with Crohn's, an auto immune disease that is draining, and dangerous, as it does not allow your body to absorb the vitamins and minerals it needs. This condition fluctuates according to your stress level. It is brought on by nerves, and I've spent four years out of the last twelve in bed. The first angel was my nurse practitioner, whom I have been going to for nineteen years. She was the one who knew when I went to her, that I had Crohn's, so she called a doctor friend and asked that he see me right away. He did, and it was Crohn's, and I was drained to the max. With medication, and baby food and yogurt and fruit, I regained my strength. I count them both as angels in my life.
Once diagnosed, I had to learn how to keep it in remission as often as possible. If it got out of control, it could lead to complications, and/or bed. I wasn't willing to go back there, but I was under a great deal of pressure and stress, and it was active. A good friend of mine e mailed me a note that said I had to go to this woman. Someone she never saw before or since, at her daughter's lacrosse game, gave her a card of a reflexologist. She went for her neck, and the pain was gone when she left. I immediately made an appointment, and was seeing her for almost two years. The difference in myself was noticeable. The physical symptoms of the Crohn's were easing up, the reflexology massages were wonderful, and I believe were working, and I was beginning to feel somewhat human again. She is a very wise woman, and she would talk to me and teach me things while doing the massage, and through e mail. We have emailed every day for two years. I became even calmer, and was managing to keep the Crohn's at bay.
I was also enlightened, and felt the spirit within. I am going through a divorce, and have not had the money to go to her anymore. I can feel the difference in the way I feel. I hope to continue one day, but her hand and arm also hurt, so who knows if we will ever be in the same position again. I envision going to visit her and someone new coming to the door and me asking for my reflexologist, and them saying, "We've lived here for thirty years, and there's been no reflexologist here." She has been an angel for me, and I acknowledge her as such.
I consider everyone I deal with on this site to be angels. All help me when I'm down. To have people care about you because they have gotten to know you through your writings, is an amazing thing, and a Blessing. People from all over the world, and in all different states. People you would never run into any other way. Why do we gravitate towards each other? Because we all have angels, and sometimes, they need to use humans to do their good deed. Thank you all of my angels, I truly appreciate your kindness, thousands of miles away.
  
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