Is there evil in the world, and if so, what do we do with it?
Most people would say, "DEFEAT IT!"
I do believe that there is evil in the world. We see it all around us. But when we talk about defeating evil (or the devil), it's often something, someone or some force out there. An individual, entity or force outside of ourselves that we must fight and defeat. So we live our lives in "full armour", watching, waiting, looking east, west, north and south ready to pounce on evil -- and the devil, the father of all evil -- and defeat it.
But Mohandas Gandhi was onto something when he said "The only devils running rampant are the devils within our hearts?'
I work as a volunteer in a community program, but for the last few months, I have been thinking of leaving the program. Before May this year, I got along with everyone on the program so fabulously. I get along with most people, no surprise there (brag, brag). I try not to outshine others because I strongly believe and live "I am because we are". I am never ever directly confrontational and always-always try to find a common ground first. That doesn't mean unconditional crap absorption because I don't take you-know-what from anyone. Anyone who knows me well also knows that although I sometimes come across as too humble (even meek), I am also nobody's punk and nobody's pawn. I'll deliver with full force for what I believe in and for those I love and care deeply about (children, and the suffering).
May this year, this woman joined the program, and from the moment she stepped in she was onto my tail like a wild fire. Shot down all my ideas. Put me down at every opportunity and really tried to get me into direct confrontation. When that failed she made some racial remarks I do not care to repeat here. But I didn't take the bait. Some battles are just not worth fighting, and some people are not worth losing sleep over.
This last Monday, she was going at it again like a dog with a bone. We were discussing a proposal for additional funding for the program, and this woman (you won't believe this, but it's true) just sat there waiting to say "that's ridiculous", "do we really want to do that?", "where is the sense in that?", "that might have work if we were in a third world country" etc. to every single idea I suggested.
I came so close to losing it and giving her the fight she was itching for but then I remembered the saying "give a suicidal person enough rope and they'll hang themselves". So every time, her claws came out, I ignored her as if I didn't hear it or smiled and just continued with what I was saying. The more I ignored what she threw at me, the more desperate she seemed to get. For some reason (and God knows, I am not proud of this), something came over me and I intentionally repeated something someone else had proposed back in April before my thorn in the flesh joined the program. And on cue the thorn in my flesh jumped at it mid-air with "that's the dumbest idea I have ever heard!"
Hell's gates opened. The woman who had previously proposed the idea, apparently didn't have my temperament and emotional landscape, and those two went for the jugular. It was not long before others joined in and the pain in my you-know-where was in tears saying people had been against her since she joined the program. Yes, no kidding, the woman had the nerve to cry victim.
Now, I am a good human being with a big loving heart who tries to live by the two most important commandments of all "Loving my God with every fiber of my being, with everything I own and with every breath I take, and loving my neighbour as if he or she were me", but that didn't stop me from briefly savouring that "wicked moment". I let them go at it for a few minutes before I stepped in with "Enough, people!"
Does evil exist in the world? YES. That woman was intentionally being evil and I think that she couldn't help herself.
BUT what about me?
What about my devils that were dancing gleefully as I savoured that brief but sweet "taste of evil"? Could evil just be part of my human nature waiting for the right moment and enough pressure? Am I capable of more evil than I can even imagine? Am I thinking with my right mind when I am being intentionally evil? What if I am completely brain-washed by someone else and I commit a sin, am I fully responsible for that sin? Does God over look sins committed in ignorance? What about when a dog tears a child into pieces killing the child, does that dog go to hell?
When I have these debates that I have with myself, I ask myself: If Jesus defeated evil, how come evil put Him on the cross? He IS the son of God with power to heal the sick, make the blind to see, calm the sea, change water to wine, walk on water, raise the dead (you name it, He did it), all He had to do was STRIKE one blow and the rest of the world would not have had to fight evil for the next two thousand years. Then I go on counting all the evils in the world that could not have happened if Jesus had defeated evil, once and for all.
After I've exhausted one side of the debate, I move to the other side (this is the problem with one person debates). May be Jesus' fight isn't so much about AGAINST and more about FOR. Why else would the devil go after Jesus even when Jesus was already on the cross?
The scriptures say one of the men on the cross next to Jesus said "If you're the Son of God, come down from the cross. Save yourself and save us." I've convinced myself beyond reasonable doubt that man was the devil himself at it again -- same exact words, the devil used to tempt Jesus three times before.
And what was Jesus' answer then? Not "Devil I'll DEFEAT you!" but "Get behind me, Satan!". My translation "Get the hell out of my way, I am A MAN WITH AND ON A MISSION!"
And what held Jesus on the Cross?
It certainly wasn't the determination to defeat evil in the world. This IS the Son of God, we're talking about. He has THE POWER TO DEFEAT EVIL ONCE AND FOR ALL! So why didn't He come down from the cross, and ha-ha-haaa the forces of evil?
What I think (me and my one person debates) held Jesus on the cross was LOVE. Yes, LOVE! That was His MISSION ON EARTH and He loved His father enough to fulfill His will, and He loved us enough to lay down His life for us. He took His love all the way to the fullest extent possible. And when He had completed His mission, he didn't say, "I won!", He said. "IT IS FINISHED!"
Why is this important and what has this got to do with defeating evil in the world?
1. Anyone who says he or she can STRIKE the forces of evil a blow and defeat evil in the world is bluffing.
2. The fight against the devil and evil has to begin from within. We must reign in the devils running rampant within our own hearts before we even think of going after the devils in someone else's heart. Imagine what happens when the devils in our hearts form an alliance with the devils in someone else's heart. Evil power!
3. We can't fight evil with evil (believe me, I tried, it felt good but only for a little while). If it wasn't for His grace, I'd right now be feeling like crap.
4. The force that makes the world go round is not the fight AGAINST the forces of evil but the FIGHT FOR THE RULE OF LOVE.
Can we fight for love, without first eradicating and wiping out the forces of evil from the face of the earth? WHY NOT? JESUS DID IT!!! And He didn't do it by singing "Kumbaya", He spoke it, lived it, gave it, received it and died for it.
So instead of waking up in the morning, dressing up and going out to look for evil to fight and defeat (what a way to live life!), we might want to try waking up, and before we get dressed up, ask yourself "who can I love today? How can I be an instrument of love, this day?"
Update: Ms. You-Know-Who and I are trying to be friends. We had dinner last night and I told her I was going to write this article and she said "And who reads stuff like that?"
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