I Hit A Pedestrian With My Car

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» left by Bruce Horst ⁽¹¹¹⁾
Bruce Horst (358 days 20 hours ago.)

Michelle, this is a terrible event to experience. I am sorry that you are having to go through this.

 

It's almost always easier to forgive others than to forgive yourself, and it is obvious that you are normally a very forgiving person, full of grace.

 

I will be praying that you are able to forgive yourself.

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» left by Michelle (358 days 19 hours ago.)

Thank you Bruce. I would respond with more, but it is hard to see through the tears. I just want to sleep until the time has passed.

 

God bless you and your family,

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» left by Teresa Ortiz ^(11,489)
Teresa Ortiz (358 days 18 hours ago.)

Michelle, I can't imagine what you are feeling, but you know where all this depression is coming from. Your enemy, the devil is having a field day with you and it is not where God would have you to be. I know you are a strong believer and so I believe I can say these words to you and you know they are not mean, though they might sound like it to others. God is gracious and it hurts him to see the added pressure you are putting on yourself. You know I love you and I say this with grace--to not forgive yourself, is like saying God's grace is not good enough for you. We all do it at times, but you cleary did not do this on purpose, so I am praying that you will embrace God as he is embracing you to comfort. There is nothing to forgive. Forgiveness is only required when a sin has been committed.

 

I love you Michelle, and I am hurting because you are hurting. And I won't pretend to understand, so I am not trying to make lightly of it.

 

I just believe strongly in my heart that the devil is doing this to you to keep you from being a blessing to other people. You have a generous and gracious spirit and the Holy Spirit is your inner strength.

 

When I did this to myself in the past, God gave me a mental picture that I will never forget and it helps me everytime. Maybe it will help you.

 

I could see a form of God on one side of me, crying and on the other side, I could see a form of the devil and he was smiling. As a child of God, that was heart breaking for me to see. Never do I want God crying and the devil smiling.

 

I do hope you see where I am coming from and I hope I don't sound to harsh, but I believe in my whole heart I needed to share this with you.

 

May you lift your hands up to your Father and let him pick you up! I am praying for you my friend!

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» left by Michelle (358 days 18 hours ago.)

Thank you my dear friend.

 

I know satan is trying to get me. I also know that this will some day pass. I also don't think you are being harsh, only loving and truthful.

 

Love, hugs and blessings

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» left by Dianne Lehmann ^(5,161)
Dianne Lehmann (358 days 15 hours ago.)

Hi Michelle.

 

My heart goes out to you. I wish that you could forgive yourself, but I have an inkling of how hard that can be. Stop replaying it in your mind. Stop telling yourself what you should have done, but did not. Give thanks that it wasn't anymore serious than it was. And resolve to never let it happen again, but not by not driving or being nervous when you do. Know that despite your resolve, it may happen again and find a way to be okay with it. Despite our best efforts, accidents happen. Learn from them.

 

God loves you. I love you.

 

Dianne

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» left by Michelle Mackin ^(3,279)
Michelle Mackin (357 days 20 hours ago.)

Thank you Dianne,

 

I well know that accidents happen and I am just going to give time...time. My resolve to not let this happen again is to not drive at night if possible. Thanks for your support.

 

Love and blessings,

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» left by James P Krehbiel ^(1,153)
James P Krehbiel (358 days 11 hours ago.)

Michelle,

 

Sometimes the best of advice rings hollow. I know that from personal experience and from my kids admonishing me! I recently had a patient who had the same thing happen to her. The best thing I could tell her was to treat herself the way she would a dear friend. Kindly, give yourself permission to be less than perfect. It will take time before your sympathetic nervous system calms down and you are able to look at this incident more clearly. Obviously, there was no intent to harm. With time, you will find healing from this traumatic experience. Be well as I pray that you regain some serenity.   

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» left by Michelle Mackin ^(3,279)
Michelle Mackin (357 days 20 hours ago.)

Thanks James!

 

Would you take me on as a new patient? I know without a shadow of a doubt, that I am less than perfect. I believe my main problem is waiting. I do not wait well. I will drive during the daylight right now, just not in the dark. I keep thinking that if I am of service to others, the feeling will go away quicker. Has not happened, so I guess I will have to write some more for my 10th step and hindsight of what God's word says for those first few days.

 

Love, hugs and blessings.

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» left by Avis Ward ^(11,806)
Avis Ward (358 days 9 hours ago.)

Michelle, to every thing there is a season and a time and purpose under the heavens. In time, you will forgive yourself and probably like we tend to do, will wonder why you had not accepted God's grace about it sooner. You are covered until that time comes. I cannot begin to imagine what you've faced. I do not want to either but I know within my soul, all is well with you. I am thankful that little girl has more to do on earth. Please write about the part you played in it as it develops. What an awesome God we serve. God bless you. You have His love and mine. Sending you hugs and peace.

Your sister in Christ,
Avis

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» left by Michelle Mackin ^(3,279)
Michelle Mackin (357 days 20 hours ago.)

Avis,

 

Blessings my sister in Christ! I will probably write more this week regard the hand of God. I can not tell you how much I appreciate everyone'e prayers and support.

 

Love, hugs and blessings,

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» left by Avis Ward ^(11,806)
Avis Ward (358 days 9 hours ago.)

***** That was 5 stars. I know it doesn't matter to you but it was my tricky finger, again. *smiling* Another hug!
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» left by Michelle Mackin ^(3,279)
Michelle Mackin (357 days 20 hours ago.)

No problem Avis,

 

I have accidently done the same. Besides, my ratings are with God and at the time I feel like a 1.

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» left by Anonymous (358 days 7 hours ago.)

Hi Michelle,

 

Thank you for putting this article on SearchWarp. Sometimes people think that Christians are next to perfect. That we don't have any problems or deal with fear or stress or depression. But, it is a reality of life.

 

I rejoice that you can see the hand of God in this accident. I rejoice that the girl received only minor injuries. And I rejoice, that the Lord brought you back home safely to me.

 

I love you, and I am sorry this has been so hard on you. I trust that God will continue to bring you healing and peace. Sometimes we just need to give time... time.

 

Mark

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» left by Michelle Mackin ^(3,279)
Michelle Mackin (357 days 20 hours ago.)

Thank you Mark,

 

You know everything there is to know and I can not tell you enough how grateful I am that God gave you to me as my husband.

 

Love

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» left by Judi Lake ^(1,883)
Judi Lake (358 days 6 hours ago.)

Michelle, although this must have been frightening and an awful experience for all you must forgive yourself and thank God the young girl only had miner injuries -- it happened, but was an accident and you can not paralyze yourself or else you can't be free. My prayer is that you are freed from the guilt you are holding.

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» left by Michelle Mackin ^(3,279)
Michelle Mackin (357 days 20 hours ago.)

Hi Judi,

 

This is something I would wish on no one. However, I haven't paralyzed myself completely. I just won't drive at night and I need to work on the anger issues when I see others in a hurry. I have been through much in my life, and I didn't drink, use or kill anyone that day, so it was not the worse day ever.

 

Love nd blessings

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» left by Danny Davids ^(20,045)
Danny Davids (358 days 4 hours ago.)

Michelle, I do know exactly how you feel. Several years ago I was the driver in an auto-pedestrian accident. Thoughts went through my head so fast I could barely separate them all:  Is she okay?  Will I go to jail?  Will my insurance rates go up?  I was silently freaking out until a guy on the street walked up to me and told me, "You'll be okay."  I told him that an ambulance was on the way and I was sure she'd be fine, and he looked at me and said again, "No, I said YOU will be okay."  I never saw him after that, and after conversations I had with friends who were praying at that time, I truly believe he was a messenger (human?  angelic?) from God letting me know things would be all right.

 

The policeman who appeared on the scene took everyone's statements and then informed me that I was not the party at fault. It didn't mean I didn't end up in court, and it didn't mean I didn't have major problems driving for a while afterwards.  But I did get through it.  And you will also, Michelle.  I will be praying.

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» left by Michelle Mackin ^(3,279)
Michelle Mackin (357 days 20 hours ago.)

Thank you Danny!

 

That was one thing I didn't mention in my article, but I truly believe that I saw two angels the next Saturday when I went to get a newspaper. One across the street raising his hands saying, "Hallejuia!" Than another on the same side of the street with a pouch on saying, "Got Jesus". I had never seen either of them before or since.

 

Thanks for your prayers and support.

God bless you

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» left by sue thom from nj (357 days 16 hours ago.)

hi michelle,

 

i'm sorry this happened to you, but sometimes, we are not the ones meant to learn the lessons, we are just pawns to help others. that little girl needed to be more careful, and from the age of 13 on, she most likely will be, preventing her from further harm.

 

you may have been her angel! a simple participant in God's plan. this, my friend, should make you happy that you were chosen to intercept in another's life in a way that they will continue on to be more careful crossing the street, so something worse doesn't happen.

 

unfortunate things can also help us learn, and i think the little girl may have had a field day telling family and friends about her ordeal, and will hopefully look before she crosses any streets again.

 

your feelings are understandable, however, remember, you might have been the catalyst to this little girl learning a lifetime lesson.

my best to you,

sue

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» left by Michelle Mackin ^(3,279)
Michelle Mackin (356 days 19 hours ago.)

Thank you Sue,

 

The girl was wearing dark clothes, but she wasn't not being careful. We both had green lights, no turning arrow and I never saw her.

 

I hope that all have learned from this lesson, because I wouldn't want it to happen to someone else.

 

Hugs and love

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» left by jeff from california (357 days 12 hours ago.)

Wow  I can not believe how many "hits" this article has received so fast, and how many people have decided to write you something. I know that this has been very hard on you, but I can also see how God is using this whole thing for good. Know that you are loved

 

Jeff

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» left by Michelle Mackin ^(3,279)
Michelle Mackin (356 days 19 hours ago.)

Thanks Jeff,

 

It is time to be grateful that it wasn't worse. I know I am loved so now I need to work on loving myself.

 

LUFTBOMH

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» left by Bob Alexander ^(2,284)
Bob Alexander (357 days 7 hours ago.)

Michelle,  Don't forget that God does know what He's doing, even though you may still be in the dark.  Remember that and you'll soon begin new adventures in driving without fear of what might have happened.

 

my best,

Bob

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» left by Michelle Mackin ^(3,279)
Michelle Mackin (356 days 19 hours ago.)

Hi Bob

 

I absolutely agree that God knows what He is doing. I am still driving, just not in the dark. It will take awhile, but I will wait for mine and others safety until I do so again. I even cried when I ran over quail coming back on a two-lane highway from Oregon. There was nowhere for me to go but forward and they lost.

 

God bless you

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» left by Yangki Christine Akiteng ^(130,793)
Yangki Christine Akiteng (357 days 2 hours ago.)

“I can see the hand of God through all this…’

 

Right now that’s all you need, my dear.  Just remember that we're not tested beyond what we can bear and that He is in total control.  Let Him Be.

 

I am praying for you...  and sending you so much LOVE!

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» left by Michelle Mackin ^(3,279)
Michelle Mackin (356 days 19 hours ago.)

Thank you Christine,

 

I remember  a plaque that I have had fallen over after this had happened. I had to stand it back up and remind myself everyday...It said, "Good morning! This is God. I will be handling all of your problems today and I don't need your help, so have a good day.

 

Thanks for your love and prayers.

God bless you always,

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» left by Anonymous (244 days 3 hours ago.)

Michelle,

today I accidentally hit someone with my car and I could not wrap my mind around it. I felt so awful, even though the man I hit was not injured. You're article made me feel less alone. Stay strong, I'll keep you in my prayers. Thank you again for posting this article.

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» left by Dawn from Fair Oaks, CA (110 days 15 hours ago.)

Michelle,

 

I hit a woman yesterday too, she walked into the street in front of my car at a driveway to get around me instead of going behind me and I just didn't see her. I talked her into letting me take her to the ER after much duress. I just feel horrible about it. I mean, "I hit her with my car!" keeps going through my head! I know she will be fine but I just feel horrible about it. I did everything I could to help her and it is now in God's hands. I just wish I didn't feel so badly about it. We are the worst on ourselves aren't we? I'd much rather be the person hit than the one who hit. It seems easier to forgive someone else than it is to forgive ourselves. God bless you and I hope I can feel better soon too! Dawn

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» left by Michelle Mackin (110 days 14 hours ago.)

Thank you Dawn,

 

I will be praying for you and I know that God will comfort all involved and carry you through. I also agree that we are harder on ourselves in this situation. I know that we didn't get in our cars saying I think we will hit someone today.

 

Take care of yourself and much love, hugs and blessings your way.

 

Michelle

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» left by Anonymous (92 days 8 hours ago.)

I am 17 years old. on July 25, I was delivering pizza's, and at around 8:30pm, i was making a turn, I was following the speed limit, and as i was turning left, I hit a pedestrian walking across the street. I did not even see her, I was blinded by the sun, I didnt even see here when i knew she was in front of me. I ran out and her little sister was there, probably around 10 years old, and she was screaming at me saying i hit her sister. Two witness's seen, one was a nurse, and he called 911. I was alone sitting on the curb, a teenager, while about 60 people were just staring at me knowing what i had done. A lady came up to me and she said she seen everything and that I had done nothing wrong. The girl I had hit was 15 years old. She had a bit of bleeding, and she was crying in pain. I had apologized to the mother and fother, and luckily they had forgiven me back, and the little girl said sorry for screaming at me, but that was the least of my worries. I woke up today with my mom and the other mom on the phone, and the good news was that she had only suffered a mild concussion, a bruise eye lid, and road rash. I was driving a 2002 dodge dakota, it was a miracle she was okay. Today is the day after the incident, and im getting ready to apologize. Please watch around every corner..

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» left by Michelle Mackin (92 days 7 hours ago.)

Hello Anon,

 

I to was making a left hand turn and did everything I was supposed to. It doesn't make it any easier however. I don't think anyone plans on getting in an accident when they get in their vehicle.  I watch every corner and always scan the street in front of me and all around. Sometimes I believe that God uses these things to draw us closer to Him.

 

I am very sorry to hear about your accident. You are young and both you and the pedestrian have your whole life ahead of you. I will be praying for all of you and maybe you and the young lady will become friends.

 

Blessings to you and your family,

Michelle

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