Dear Father,
Well, Dad, I wanted to wish you a happy Fathers' Day, but I don't know where you are. In fact, I have never even met you. Oh, I have looked for you and searched for you, year upon year, to no avail. Where are you? Who are you?
I wish I knew what you looked like. I wish I knew the sound of your voice. I wish that you had held me and rocked me in your arms when I was a child. But, I have never known these things… I wonder what they would have been like.
I suppose, if you should ever read this, that you should know countless other men have tried to be my Daddy through the years. Some were cruel, some were mean, some tried to the best of their ability, and others didn't try much at all. Nevertheless, I suppose that there is no father like one's real father.
I often wonder if I will ever meet you. I wonder if you are married or if I have brothers and sisters. I wonder if you have been hospitalized or if you are in prison. I wonder too, if you are even alive. But, most of all I wonder if you ever think about me.
I have almost died… many times in my life. I have been abandoned and abused by men. I struggle with a terrible debilitating disease. But, none of these things have stopped me. I have three beautiful boys… young men actually. Two of them are twins. In addition, I am the proud grandmother of three beautiful grandsons. I wonder what I will tell them when they ask me about you. I suppose that I can always tell them that even though I have never met you that I have always wanted to love you and to be loved by you. I suppose I can also tell them that even though they have not met you, that they can still love you and hope that you could love them too.
By the way, before I have to go, I want you to know that today I have a Father who has promised that He will never leave me nor forsake me. I hope that you can meet Him if you haven't already. Because it sounds to me like maybe you needed a Father as much as I did through the years.
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