The particular life challenges and destined events that are the hallmark of being an old soul...
If you're an old soul you will undoubtedly be giving, caring loving and compassionate - all wonderful attributes that we are taught are the signs of a developed person who cares for others, and the actions that we take that may affect others.
The key signs of an old soul
· Giving and caring often putting others first
· Had a difficult romantic life often with much pain and disappointment
· More than likely had a soulmate relationship
· Things just seem to happen to you and around you, often becoming very dramatic through the seemingly extreme reactions of others
· Events repeat themselves
· Have trouble connecting with your family
· Somehow know you're different
· Have some psychic intuition and 'just knowing' things
· Find that you have deeper emotions and passions than most people
· People have extreme reactions to you - some just adore you and some seem to really dislike you yet you behave the same to everyone
· Have an inner creative passion
· Suffer lots of jealousy
· Often perceived wrongly
· Feel your don't have much free will, like your life is being controlled by some outside force
· Often feel 'stuck' like events just keep on happening to you time after time
All of us can relate to some of these characteristics and events at some time in our lives however the 'old souls' amongst us will shout "Yes that's me !" and immediately understand and relate.
In contrast, we have all met the 'young souls' the ones who profess to be giving and caring and often seem to seek us out, but who never really give, just take, and who then commit the most insensitive and often cruel acts but seem to have no understanding of what they've done or any sign of remorse whatsoever. In fact they can often go to such extremes to get very aggressive when we point out their actions and the effect that they've had on us..
Soul Age
The terms 'old soul' and 'young soul' aren't just descriptions of personality types but do give us a meaningful clue to why we find ourselves in this life cycle…
The journey of the soul through many lives is one of growth and learning from the earliest manifestation of that soul in human form - where it's focused on material things, power, ego and the "now", eventually through to the higher levels of compassion, truth, destiny, caring and fairness in later lives as old souls.
The soul is required to visit human form many times in order to learn these lessons. It is through interaction with others on the three dimensional plane that the soul accrues karma, the results of its actions on others and paying the price of those actions ( first rule of karma "what goes around comes around" - or what I often refer to as the 'karmic boomerang') that develops, hones, and tunes the spirit into the higher levels, eventually becoming attuned to the highest level of as 'old soul' in later lives.
Part of that developing process is to become infinitely more empathic, attuned to the universe and destiny, and for our intuition to develop more towards psychic powers. At this stage we sense that destiny plays a greater part in our lives that we could previously have imagined as we 'peek behind the scenes' of the universal mechanisms through our developing intuition.
This itself is also a challenge as we watch those less enlightened who are still contained in the "I know best" mode, mess up their lives going wandering down the wrong path. Typical of this is the soulmate where we are tasked to watch them wander off knowing somehow that the tests they will face will ultimately bring them back around, older, wiser and more spiritually aware.
It's important to understand that each time our soul revisits the earthly plane, that we play 'catch-up', developing through our earthly actions and learning experiences quickly to regain that level of spiritual awareness we attained when leaving the previous life. In other words, in entering this life we are initially unconscious of the fact that we are required to have a very testing life to 'fast track' us to the spiritual level we are meant to be at in this one.
So the older the soul, the harder and more testing the early events in order to make us reach inside and spiritually open to regain previously achieved levels of spirituality and to further develop..
'Soul age' with Soulmates
I've already mentioned that we have all had to deal with the 'young souls', the ones who seem sent to test us and can often leave us feeling dazed and confused and hurt.
At this point I have to highlight something that's particularly important and relevant to soulmates. Your soulmate is unlikely to be a young soul even though their actions to-date may fit what we've described as a young soul.
We get terribly confused when we sense they are loving and caring and deep and spiritually enlightened yet they frequently behave in the totally opposite way
The important difference between a soulmate and a young soul is that the universe does not connect young souls with old souls in soulmate connections. What your soulmate is most likely going through is the life tests on that "fast track" , i.e learning fast and developing to their real soul age through meeting all the tough tests and making all the mistakes, acting in that earthly controlled, ego based, "I know best" way.
Hence the duality of their existence and the confusion they cause within our lives. What you are sensing is that destiny. It's the butterfly sensing another butterfly but seeing a caterpillar….
This is the main reason soulmates have to part, in order that the less developed one catches up with their earthly experiences in order to fully awaken spiritually and be ready to reconnect with their real soul age from the past life and to reconnect with you to continue the journey at the same spiritual level…
Energy Vampires and Attack
Old souls will also be no strangers to people who try to cling to, or take or attack our energy. Often the more we give to people the more abuse we take. It's an extreme example of the "no good deed goes unpunished" rule.
Energy vampires are those who somehow spiritually sense our power and energy to come into our lives to using us as a crutch, often draining us through their need to explain their problems and us be the solution.
Frequently they will use our caring, giving nature to assist them with their lives, often becoming too close and draining and we don't seem to be able to find a way to tell them that this is something we aren't comfortable with and so we allow it to continue to an abusive level.
Most times the person clinging to us won't be aware of why they are doing this they just sense, feel that we have something they need that causes them to be drawn closer and closer.
This is because their spirit, their energy senses a more powerful energy. It's not on an ego awareness plane, we're not talking 'mind' stuff here we're talking spiritual energy which all of us sense even if we aren't realizing it. It's on the "there's something about him/her" level.
Some will migrate to that energy for healing and comfort, the 'karmic vampire', others will fall for the energy in a romantic way and become instantly attached, with others seeking us out as a focus for blame and negative attention ( karmic dumping ). When confronted with their actions, even in the most caring and compassionate of ways, aggression and blame are often the responses they visit upon us as they lash out...
Jealous bosses or co-workers, unwanted sexual attention, being 'picked out', blamed, the focus of attention when we don't want to be - all of these are classic symptoms.. Yes anyone will experience some of this in their daily lives but what we are talking here is something that happens to the old soul again and again at a frequency and intensity far above anything that can statistically be considered average..
Now you may think the word attack is rather strong and negativity and conflict are a common phenomenon of everyday human interaction, however any old soul will point out the frequency and veracity of their experiences- often amazing others when they hear the stories.
At this point I remember lots of incidents in my own life but the most profound moment was when I was confronted by someone who spat anger and bile at me proclaiming I'd done this and that and the other with dark motives.
The total shock was something I won't forget. Actually I hadn't done any of these things in fact I wasn't even in the country when they happened. However that didn't mean anything to this man - he set himself up as judge, jury and executioner and that utterly stunned me. It was only one of lots of incidences but is typical of an 'attack'.
On an energy level, this guy, to my definite first hand knowledge, cheated on his wife, was unfair in business, had a huge ego and had controlled and manipulated several people to his own ends. Nevertheless I had never taken it as my task to judge any of this, I just treated him like I treated anyone else. That was what caused the utter disbelief the astonishment that his 'reality' was 180 degrees from actual events.
Attacks from young souls who misinterpret our actions based upon their own narrow understandings are commonplace. In the example above, this guy had judged me based not upon his perception of me, my morals and motives - but from his own. He projected people's actions as having the same intent as his own and not realizing what he had done, had given me an insight into his own dark world by the veracity and ferociousness of his attack.
He could not perceive any of my actions as being honest, decent and caring and putting others first because he wasn't capable of acting from that place within himself. In addition, whatever anger, frustration and emotions this caused necessitated him exaggerating these false claims to a level so ludicrous that it lost all connection with reality.
In the end a quick chat with his lawyer resolved the problem because the lawyer simply told me the case was so ludicrous he couldn't take it seriously. However it was still very painful for me and really illustrates that in addition to giving love and light and understanding, we need to be prepared to defend ourselves against attach from a darker or afflicted soul - 'karmic dumping' as I call it.
This again is one of the spiritual karmic tests that every old soul has to face. I always say that an old soul can walk into a room full of people and without even saying a word, three others will adore them and three hate them instantaneously.
All of the above cannot be avoided and are not as a result of our actions but of who we are on a spiritual level.
The importance of power.
As we grow and learn, parents' teachers, mentors, the media, religious teachings and other influences in our lives all teach us that being giving and kind and caring and turning the other cheek are vital to being a good human being. True of course..
So why do we more caring, more giving, more compassionate old souls often feel walked over by life ??
As in all things there is a duality. Look at nature - there's no cold without hot, no up without down, no dark without light. The yin and the yang, the interplay of opposing forces seeking balance.
Although conventional teaching is to keep pouring love and light and openness and giving into situations there is a point where we become depleted. There is a point where our love and compassion can cause us to give more than is healthy, to accept more than is our lot, and when we run out of cheeks to turn.
Herein lies one of the most important karmic lessons in that, we must seek balance. We must maintain our own personal power and not allow love, compassion and "thinking the best of people" to become voluntary abuse when that person or persons repays us with negativity.
Allowing this to happen encourages lowering self-esteem, feelings of abandonment, and a sense that destiny has left us behind when people are responding to us in a very negative way. For many of us this is a lesson that takes many years to learn.
Most of use will have experienced abuse of our energy in different situations from work, family and relatives, within friendships and especially in personal relationships.
We often give too much because we are giving people, and through that action diminish our personal power. Give love and light YES, pray for people YES, BUT I believe that it is essential for all of us to sometimes have to fight to protect the incredible value of our energy to realize it is a rare thing and to value it even when others don't.
In achieving balance we understand that giving love and light and having compassion and caring and understanding of people, especially those that are afflicted and confused by negativity is essential but is only one half of that balance. Love and light won't get your elephant off the tracks so sometimes we need to use our power in an assertive way.
The old soul experience comes with many such tests. This is not about giving less or giving to receive, it is to balance our giving and loving and caring with a total respect for the gold that is our own energy…In all things balance…
I feel like parts of me are lost in the books I've read, the people I've lost and the anxiety that has become tomorrow. I've been told by many that know me and many that meet me that I am an old soul. I'm almost 25 and I can't begin to tell you how old I really feel. I'm a world away from the people around me in school and at my current job. I believe in the Energy Vampire. I met a girl in highschool that simply adored me. Amid all my shyness and the sexual harassment that I endured, it was nice to have someone express an interest in learning from me. I shouldn't use the word friend because I have an ideal for what that should be but her emulation turned to some strange worship. My parents began to call her my stalker but her family kept telling me how good I was for her. She sucked the life out of me. When I moved out of my house we became roomates, she stole from me in every sense, would show up at my job- crying because she made out with her boyfriend's best friend, lied about my accomplishments as hers and eventually tried to seduce my boyfriend and eventually my father. It all happened so fast, we were roomates less than 6 months. I tried to always take the higher ground and decided that once the lease was up I could seek healthier friends. My boyfriend was an old soul too. Brilliant, handsome and humble. He was the first one everyone would call for help and the last one to ever get a thank you. He was constantly walked over and the depression he suffered for it only made him more determined to be a better person. He had a fear that he was a bad person whenever he got angry or hurt by someone. When my roomate left on the weekends, he'd come over and we'd build a fort in the livingroom to hide from the world. He told his mom I was the one but killed himself a few weeks later. We'd been dating two years. There were numerous other young souls involved and it was all very complicated. He tried to call me for help that night, he didn't say that or betray his sadness in his voice but he called to see if he could come over. On the phone with him, I was locked in my room while my roomate was outside screaming at me for never being around. I had never raised my voice to her as she was shouting obsenities and kicking my door. I told him that it was a bit tense at the moment but offered to meet him. He said no, he was tired.
That monday I started my new job after class. My new manager suddenly asked me to go sit outside and wait. Someone was coming to talk to me. No one would tell me anything. I sat outside and tried to call everyone but no one would answer. My roomate showed up to tell me they'd found his body. I was already crying before she got there. Somehow I knew. All she said was "they found him this morning." She heard from a friend of a friend. No one called because they thought it was my fault. It was impossible to understand otherwise. Why would a smart, attractive man, months away from grad school kill himself?
He was sucked dry by the people around him, the ones who stole from him, who tricked him, who owed him hundreds of dollars...
It didn't get any easier. I talked to his mom who read his journal and understands. She said "thank you for taking care of my baby" and that in the letter he wrote (I never read it, couldn't bear to. I know how he felt.) that it was in no way my fault.
Still, I lost all aquaintances from that time in my life. The rumors about me that surfaced were, I'm sure, perpetuated by people who felt guilt on their own behalf. My roommate kept telling people he was still alive and had just moved to California. (She had several fights with him that boiled down to jealousy- for the time I spent with him and how happy we were) His parents actually had to correct people. "No, our son is dead." I was placed in a mental hopital against my wishes and the wishes of my parents. I had voluntarily gone to the ER to get an IV for some fluids. I hadn't been able to keep down any food for about 3 days since I found out about his death. The did a mental evaluation after they started the IV and decided I was suicidal because of the depression and the fact that I wasn't eating. My parents argued that I needed to stay at home, that this would only make things worse. I was forced into another room, stripsearched and locked in a tiny white room with a bed and barred-up window. This was Valenties day 2007. The hospital staff woke me up at 5 that morning to move me elsewhere. Apparently the person I was sharing a room with had become dangerous. I was awakened again at 7 in my new room by screaming. The lady I was now sharing a room with was coming of some dangerous drugs so they sedated her at night. They couldn't get her to wake so they kicked her bed and scared the $%&*@$%& out of her.
All the people I was trapped with were addicts, there was no one like me. They were all coming off of drugs or alcohol and were terrifying or heartbreaking. I was trapped there for 4 days. The staff wasn't aware of my situation, so when I didn't come out for social time I was yelled at. I just stared at the cracks in the wall until they started to move and cried. My parents were trying to get me out of there and during visiting hours when I was finally allowed to see them, they weren't allowed to bring me the chocolates they bought for me. (V-day) I missed his wake because I was locked up and was told I couldn't go to his funeral because it would "set me off, I couldn't handle it in my frail state". I kept begging, I explained that I had to see his body. I still didn't believe that he was dead. My parent talked to everyone in the hospital and I was released just in time to make it to the service. Hospital bracelet and all. My dad, who is very patient, quiet and a play-by-the-rules kind of guy had a list of grievances that he aired before we left. It was like One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest or something. The whole experience was awful.
I didn't even notice the stares by eveyone from highschool. I looked terrible, sunken from my lack of apetite and swollen from crying at the same time. I was not allowed to sit with his family because his grandmother hated me. She blamed me and told me after the service.
Things were still hard for a long time.
I had a hardship withdrawal from school and because of it I lost my scholarship. I continued to pay rent but moved across town with my grandmother. (The epitome of an old and graceful soul. She died this year and I know any opportunity to come back would be voluntary choice to make the world a better place.) My roomate continued to harass me. One time a package I'd ordered was accidentally sent there and I received a mocking text that if I wanted it I needed to pay her for utilities (even thought I wasn't living there and was still paying rent while she had someone new move in)
I've worked very hard to get myself back into school. I work and go to class full-time. It doesn't leave much room for friends and I think I'm afraid to make any. The only relationship I've had since this was with a boy that was really sweet to me when we started seeing each other. It was a sort time before I found out he was really an alcoholic and had been on probation with an alcohol detector- unable to drink. As soon as that thing came off he was another person, abusive and mean. I got out as quickly as I could and he doesn't know where I live or how to find me.
Depression still lingers and I don't know if I just attract people that are bad for me or if it's choices I somehow make. I just want to say to eveyone that it's all for something and please don't give up . I wouldn't trade what I've been through for the ignorance I sometimes see in other, more socially adjusted people. I don't mean to sound like I feel superior in any way, I just know they haven't experienced some things yet. This article was very helpful and relates to a lot of books my grandmother left me. I'll read and try to get as much out of them as I can. I didn't mean to rant. I just haven't talked about this to anyone and thought maybe some people could relate to turbulence. I feel close to anyone that can. I hope you all know how special you are and that the world will be a better place someday.
wow , you seem to have been through way more than many of us will ever in this lifetime. You should definatly consider writing a book of that tragic time in your life i believe it could really open the eyes of many people. Im gravely sorry to hear about the guy who died. Just promise me that you will never give up hope because live will improve for you. It has to and you are one of the few who really deserve it.
» left by Will from Dallas Tx (120 days 19 hours ago.)
Wow, your story reminds me so much of my situation, which Thank God everyone is still alive but the depression pain and anxiety are so real.. Im afraid I still haven't found myself and the last 3 years for me is a tale of trauma.... I had a business partner who backstabbed me gruesomely, misused my trust and blatently lied to me before trying to steal my business... right about the same time the real estate market (I was a Realtor for 7+ years) was going bad...he left with a bill he owed me in the thousands... all this right after I bought a home... Around the same time, my ex fiance and only fiance ever, left me.. I got depressed and I had a huge aggression for the banking industry and the goverment because of the bank scandals i was aware was so corrupt so i started seeking all the info I could... the ex fiance depression really added to the pain...the bad bus. partner showed back up in my life influencing a bad habit of mine (too much pot) and kept promising to pay me back... I was always feeling a negative vibe around him and then I discovered that some of the stuff I had looked into about masons and government corruption had offended this guy. Somehow, a friend of mine who I think is Wiccan, came back into my life,at least he knew alot about it, and he was dating a jehova witness that i knew form HS and had recently said hi to on myspace.. I knew the guy from business.. in the past, another girl I knew in the past had connected me to this guy a few years before, and he was my go to plumber for years as a realtor... He seemed like a good neutral friend for years.. but more recently he had been the doorway to me meeting the jehova witness girls' family.. I was trying to teach them the law of attraction, and we frequently debated the authenticity of the bible.. they always wanted to talk "demons" and "end times"... I wanted to help them change their attitudes.. as the secret came out... but I found that the JW dad, Ray, who's daughter is Tuesday, seemed to be be drainers...I couldn't be more sure of that, he even left me a message recently saying he wanted to "touch my pulse".... I was invited over to their home alot, they took me to a freedom rally of stuff i was interested in regarding 9/11 and other such conspiracies where i met some amazingly informed ppl ex fbi agents and such.. but I knew something was really up... i ended up lashing out at everyone I knew about a year ago, finding or thinking that alot of them were freemasons or occult related groups.. These ppl keep seeking me out, one guy in particular did some strange things and I could not help to lash out at him and a strange episode occurred where I felt like i was drawn into the sun and I saw alot of symbols... this happened while i was alone one day but Somtime around then, i had a confrontation where I was taken over by something and my voice changed while two ppl were at my table. I had this feeling that my friends were two opposing spirits and at the end I was really afraid of them... A year later, i blew it off as maybe a hallucination. and i apologized to them for the strange outburst although deep inside i think they understood it... I thought perhaps, maybe i was just sensitive to their depressions that just added to mine... one of the guys, was living down the road with no electricity, water or gas , and the home he was renting from my ex bus. partner was about to be foreclosed... the ex bus partner told him to avoid me... after we had a confrontation and i sent him a really awful text message.. although he had hurt me, the promise of him paying me back made it easy for him to step back into my life with his new jaguar which made me mad cause he obviously thought of himself first...... We were going to the movies one day when i heard voices in my head saying "car accident" .. and he was playing with the brakes while i heard it... I had more hallucination on tv while they were with me ... the story in my head and tv correlation was telling me they were playing games (him and his soon to be tenant) I was trying to start a new career at the time and sometimes the voices were so cluttered in my head that i couldn't think at all.. I saw flashes on my computer screen that said "F WORK F WORK" and i sensed the realtion to the ex bus. partner, who had recently told me he's joining a freemason lodge...he wanted to recruit me to his new business venture and I was not having that at all... Some beef grew between them two, a few months after the incident and the text mssg... supposedly,, and I invited the tenant to rent a room from me for a while.. after the ex bus partners home he was renting out got foreclosed.. at the end of last year.. a huge turn around since a year before he kept leaving things in my home when i invited him over, and returning for them (the current roomate) a feeling told me not to let him in my home, but he kept finding ways to manipulate me it was totally wierd.. ... lately I have been sensing that he's alot more crafty with words than I thought, and that he's definitely draining me.. he makes alot of hand motions and is very very emotional.. he seems to act so simple but on a occasion he'll express some knowledge about some deep and religions and its made me wonder if he's doing his vamporism thing intentionally or if I am unconsciously provoking it due to my fears... I was scared for a while.. i've dressed up many times and couldn't leave the house.. sometimes for more than a week at a time and more than a few occasions the last 3 years... more recently i feel like he, or at least someone wants it that way... another interesting memory from a year ago is that this girl I was friends with for years, told me I was going to be really mad at her... two red spots showed up on her neck and she looked at me and said its wierd that it happens to her... I dunno if shes a friend or not but she seems to seek me out for advice alot.. I accused her of being a vamp and stayed away for a long time.. lately she reappeared in life with problems trying to control her b/f into marrying her sooner than he wants.. we went to a psychic together and the psychic told me theres someone very jealous around me, not of my home or my things but that I have a future... and to stay away... I think the psychic may be right and i think it may be my roomate, but I have this sense that whoever it is can make me think its someone else.. I have a sense that even she might be interested in using me and maybe she did for years... i've accused my own mom and dad of draining me but their actions prove they love me... I think something or someone intentionally confused me to either drive me crazy or protect themself.. Somehow this depression has made my views distorted but now im conscious that i have a bad spirit living with me... He's a very depressed guy, doesn't aim for much and i get frustrated that he's so lazy... I've tried to teach him alot but he seems to use some of the details to justify or rationalize that its "His Reality" a concept that i taught him and at times the comments are absurd and I just can't reply... When he moved in he had a 20 hr a week jack in the box job cleaning signs and spent most of his time asleep or on pot.. When he first moved in i made him seek another job and he found something that at least gives him 40 hours.. I tried to help him plan to get a car, but it seems he doesn't want to better his position, but that he wants to just live here forever at the cheap rent i charge... I've decided to completely stop trying to help him and although i could use the money.. Now I plan to get him out of my home. I feel i've helped him all i can and maybe he's abused that... the article above is so accurate about me that it confirms what a very nice woman told me years ago about me being an old soul... she's also the reason i visited new orleans a few times because I was so intrigued about her ghost stories.. I feel thers a good presence with me, but that somehow my life purpose is offensive to some ppl and theres always been a jealous person coming into my life its amazing ppl that i've grown to suspect tend to be ppl that show up at my door without calling first... including this roomate a year after i told him to stay away from me forever a year ago because of what i felt.. Im starting to really be aware of this other world thats been around me all the time... I thought I was before but its more clear now... but now i frequenly feel attacked when im in public.. I wish someone could tell me how to be undetectable, so that I don't attract takers anymore... I am really confused but I know to never give up, although I have to admit suicide has crossed my mind a few times.. I do not have the heart to do it and I have too much love for others to do that... I want to use my life for the best possible cause but without offending others.. I was very very successful for years at real estate and to be honest, it was like a dream i don't know how i did that, i was so strong in those days... ive tried to start another career only to find depression and a fear of rejection like i've never felt.. i've had a few jobs in 2 years and for short periods because pressures seem so high.. the last job was very abusive to me despite the fact that as a manager, I was setting company records in just two months.. I was so frustrated that I quit, knowing that it wasn't worth it... The owner and his right hand man were both really vocally abusive, and he told me that he wanted me to become his "mini me" .. Now i know this roomate is not worth helping, him or myself, i can sense his bad mood before he crosses the bridge to get to my home... he plays dumb most of the time.. but occasionally expresses knowledge about things he plays dumb about most other times... I thought I was going crazy but theres too many similar stories out there I seem to keep finding... I really need some guidance from someone that doesn't want money or my energy, although im willing to share love with anyone that has an open ear and an open heart... Theres another whole story about another person who was involved, who i had ppl telling me before that he was a cloud hanging over me.. years ago when we worked to gether... we made a bet one year for production and it was one of my worst years in the business... in fact they called me in for a special convo to tell help make me aware of whats going on.. I cant believe he'd be so jealous but its amazing how similar he is to a friend of my dad's that used to drain him... rip him off all the time and such... he eerily reminds me of this guy ive kept a distance from... Im so glad this article is up and that I found it... Im not very religous but more so lately, and im gonna pray that I might meet the right person through here... someone that might help me make some crucial decisions... about my dealings with people like that... I have probably misaccused someone of being an energy drainer and I don't want to ever do that again.. at the same time, i want to know the best way to handle the little pests... It almost seems like some are so petty that , they only exist for me to learn from.. Thanks for your posting.. I hope to be able to come back someday with wonderful news ... and perhaps get the strength to become the life coach I see myself as... once I can get my own life straight..
I have not experienced these things, but they feel so familiar.
I am a teenager at this time and I feel so alone in a high school of 4700 students. I see humanity as a thing of wonder, for we have so much potential for good and also so much potential for bad. I believe that what makes an individual "human" is this potential. I have many fears. Anyone who can say they are afraid of nothing, in my opinion, has lost their potential. They have lost their humanity. The potential comes from the ability to empathize, to analyze, to be aware, and to grow. The potential comes from the conscience. My classmate told me out of the blue one day, "You're such an old soul." I was confused by what she meant. She said that who I am is very mature for my age, and the maturity shows despite my "baby face." I still didn't quite understand. The first thing that popped into my head when she said that was denial. My mind shouted, "NO! YOU CAN'T BE! YOU SIMPLY ARE WHO YOU ARE. You have a ton of life in you! This is not why you are alone!" Then I thought about what she said. I wondered why people either fear me, hate me, or love me—whether or not I even know their name. My name is quite memorable, so I often have people greeting me in the hallways whom I do not know. Once I walked into a class for the first time and a girl I had never seen before walked right up to me and said, "Look, I really, REALLY don't like you. So just don't ever talk to me." I was shocked, and confused. I told her that I'm sorry if I had ever done anything to offend or upset her and she rolled her eyes and walked away. The rest of the year she talked about how I belonged in "a mental institution" and how "weird" I was. She was so loud one day that I just looked straight at her as she said this. She looked back at me and said, "EW! LOOK! She's looking at me right now! (then to me) STOP LOOKING AT ME, FREAK!" And the people around her laughed. I asked to go to the bathroom and I cried in the stall. Then I have friends, real friends, who love me and whom I love. One once told me that they didn't know who they would be without having met me. Then, in turn, these people seem to vanish from my life too. I'm often under the impression that I will always be abandoned eventually by those that I love. Especially after a friend cuts contact and ignores me completely. It hurts so much. I've been cautious with letting myself get too close to people, that's probably why I have only been used by someone once. But boy, did they use me. And they seem to think that they're still getting away with it. I finally clued in when they said that old saying, "keep your friends close and your enemies closer," and I realized that the only reason she was being nice to me (after sending me a horribly insulting and vulgar e-mail and we had come to some kind of resolution) was because I was still an enemy to her. I had done nothing to harm her. And it still hurts that someone who I still feel (her pain, her fear, her frustration, but never her happiness), even though we may have had no communication for a while, or I have no reason to know something is wrong, is someone who considers me an enemy.
But I still try to have hope for that potential. For humanity. Things can always get better and things can always get worse. The important thing is to muster up the courage to find out what does happen and to maintain the guts to live through it. Then you can truly say that you have lived through it. At particularly difficult times, I remind myself never to miss out on the birds' early morning chorus. Always keep singing.
i think we are sharing a lot of things,my friend called me ont time"mature" in english(iam from sudan and i speak arabic as a first languge)
also i like meeting new people and make new freindship ,i am a boy scout and i went to the uk tow years ago to biggest scouting camp ever,40000boy scout and girl scout from all over the worlds,and i really enjoyed it so much
» left by MidnightKitty from FL (6 hours 36 minutes ago.) New Comment!
you seem like your a kind interesting person. its nice to see that there are people that like myself have that kind of hope.i myself have gone threw $%&*@$%& in my years most wouldnt believe ( me being only 17 ) most would wonder how someone of that age is able of having any great cares or troubles or even the understanding of those things but i could prove that thought wrong... i dont think i have the time to even begin explaining my story. sry im unable to leave a more worthy comment but im horrible at actually wording my thoughts and that being the reason i usually dont leave comments
Hey Im new to just finding out who i was in my past life also. And im definitly an old soul. Ive had many lives as a war veteran to a scholar, to the man that mapped out india. Wierd i know. And im only 25 also. You felt this callin to you just like i did didnt you? I think i have something you should read
» left by name from location (86 days 8 hours ago.)
this article is craaazy wow . talk about hitting the nail w/ the hammer . i cant even remember why i looked this up it just came to me (as you all probably experienced before). im only 19 to paint a picture...my characteristics are like 110% scorpio its messed up. ever since i was little people have told me im an old soul. and they are right i believe...my life is a whirlwind tho. i am well off, but i am still not happy. i dont have the passionate things i long for, so other quantities of things just dont do the trick...(pressure to pick a course and RUSH into university is horriiiibbbbble)
it soo feels like ppl are against me/jealous... which is $%&@*ed cuz im a smart young man, thats athletic, humorous, and loves the outdoors and music...aaand i have a twin brother.....so they have a reason to be jealoous. but thats what makes me crazy. i jst dont know why ppl would be hating me for no reason, using me for no reason, just decieving and taking advantage of the 'moral trust' i hope they too have as a human being. ive had good friends steal from me...friends that were so poor id give them a free TV and clothes (nice too), and he still stole couple hundred from me one day?! or how i didnt care cuz hes fiiiinallly out of my life for the small price of a few hundred bucks. so i dont care i put trust in the Lord and crossroads he puts me through..
but yah also... i believe i am an alpha male, so i long to find an alpha female....but no luck. women give me a lot of pain, as i am sooo $%&@*n picky that it bites me in the ass....and ive been alone a long time bcuz of my selective habits...but i will find what im looking for one day. i have faith. but its tough, i mean ive been given so much but i havent done anything with it, i have these huuge ideas (earth changing ideas) but i cant seem to think this is impressive....i feel as if the fact i am smart and creative is bad..and i wish i was more practical and conservative...but $%&@* that i wanna live and love to the fullest...
this article helps biiig-tiiiime. ooo ive seen some sh*t ppl and im telling you...there is a GOD, we as spirits will live and grow forever, maybe heaven is the top of the ladder..when the spirit has grown so much that it can now come into the final kingdom and finally rest....i dunoo......we as humans know nothing and its best that way... follow the Lords rules and spread Light! stand up when you have to...a coward dies a thousand deaths but a soldier dies but once....think from a neutral mind-state, breathe out the problems, embrace what makes you happy/what your good at, trust yourself, and basically believe........... p.s. music is awesome
» left by Vincent Kranenburg from The Netherlands (85 days 18 hours ago.)
"As in all things there is a duality. Look at nature - there's no cold without hot, no up without down, no dark without light. The yin and the yang, the interplay of opposing forces seeking balance.
Although conventional teaching is to keep pouring love and light and openness and giving into situations there is a point where we become depleted. There is a point where our love and compassion can cause us to give more than is healthy, to accept more than is our lot, and when we run out of cheeks to turn.
Herein lies one of the most important karmic lessons in that, we must seek balance. We must maintain our own personal power and not allow love, compassion and "thinking the best of people" to become voluntary abuse when that person or persons repays us with negativity."
I'm afraid i must disagree with this part. As duality, singularity is all. For duality is a single word, not two. Therefore, if one practises meeting up with destiny, i truly believe we can withstand all negativity or "vampires" with mere love. After all, loving assertiveness has never been proven to not exist.
As a result, the thought of balance becomes inappropriate. A ballet dancer can stand on one toe for a very long time and be balanced on that mere one toe. This supports my statement that we need practise. My conclusion is: the 'fast track' only lasts as long as you let it.
No probs that you disagree thats your call but apologies for shooting your example of the one point of balance...it exists because of he duality of forces creating it, change that harmony of opposing forces, lean slightly left, sightly right and that singular point of contact dissapears... and we get....imbalance !
» left by Saleena from USA (79 days 19 hours ago.)
i cant believe how much this article describes me. I am not positive i am an old soul, but this article has answered many questions for me,like why i "just know things", and why drama surrounds me.
» left by emma from sydney (73 days 20 hours ago.)
I know im an old soul, but it doesnt explain why i make the same mistake over and over again, and the first time i ever made it it was as farmiliar as having my morning coffee. is the universe trying to tell me something or do i need to live another thousand lifetimes to learn. by the way, i am extremelly young, and my yet no one seems to percive me as that. as if my past life shines through on a stronger field thatn my actuall life. its as if im suppose to be somewhere else. something isnt right. its beyond i just know things, its i understand them in depth before they have a chance to make their effects and ripple through society. i dont even know why im sharing this here im just hoping someone may have an explaination, something i dont already know, someone wiser and older than me. not just a theory. i know the theory.
» left by Kay Em from anonymous (70 days 17 hours ago.)
I've had people tell me that I am an old soul since I was a kid. I think other than the empathy thing, the connecting with family thing, feeling frequently wrongly perceived, and sometimes knowing stuff but not knowing how or why I know it (NO psychic ability AT ALL tho! - I scored remarkably low on a test for this), I don't think I quite fit the description.
I am not known to be very caring - I do care, but I know I am not always very conscientious of others (not that I'm mean, just oblivious).
I haven't had a very difficult love life - almost always parting on relatively good terms. But, then again, maybe I haven't yet had the difficult experience of parting with a "soul-mate".
Yeah, I feel things like grief and adversity pretty deeply (too deeply, I've been told), but I always just considered that a part of the notoriously moody "creative/artistic temperament." Or maybe I'm just kinda bi-polar.
Of course people react strongly to me! I just told you I am moody and often oblivious to the needs of others! If you don't mind such things, we'll get along great! LOL
I don't know about the jealousy thing, I don't consider myself very jealous - or at least I tend not to really act on such feelings. As for people being jealous of ME? LOL, doubt it, I'm sure there must be far more valid reasons to dislike me.
As for dramatic things, they happen to everybody / I feel just as special and unique as anybody else / haven’t seen much repetition in my life.
Free will? Pffft, sometimes yes, sometimes no, I guess. Sometimes I feel like there are "set paths," but they keep branching and you have the free will to choose which path you take. Sometimes you are forced down a path, but eventually even that path will take you to "the fork in the road" where free will meets you to make a choice in direction.
Anyway, I think maybe my soul is more like middle-aged.
» left by Joe from California (69 days 5 hours ago.)
What is this all based on? This all seems very arbitrary to me, especially the stuff about how we must "visit the human form many times." Look, there is absolutely no way of you knowing that with any degree of certainty, and to sell it to these poor gullibles, so longing to be special, is just wrong. It's like shooting fish in a barrel. Life, is a mystery and there are no definitive answers when it comes to the metaphysical. Learn to live with the mystery and quit defining things you are clueless about.
A perfect illustration of many of the points in the article... I would have credited the "poor gullibles" with being allowed to make up their own minds though...
» left by Warren from toronto, ontario (48 days 2 hours ago.)
This is a great example of what happened to me when I was a teenager. I was basically floating on a cloud when I was younger, fallowing the rules or the universe.. giving and recieving love and enjoying the oneness with all life very much, but out of jelousy my mom's boyfriend put me down every day for over five years which lead to me becomming very depressed. I was able to release all of the depression as it is just negative energy in the form of suppressed anger... but anyways, now I have a whole new way to life.. I still give out lots of love and energy, but as soon as I see someone trying to take advatage of me.. I shut them out of my positive energy field.. It really feels good.. You will feel more powerful and respected by yourself...
Amazing article and thank you. Some repeated actions can be bewildering at best, devastating at worst.. I've often wondered if the heart contains more energy at birth in the older souls..
Although that statement alone could be viewed as contentious by some..
» left by loki from Californ.i-a (35 days 21 hours ago.)
I woke up this lazy morning with one word in my head, “old soul”. I now know what she meant. That label was given to me the day I was born… my great-grandmother transitioned shortly after and I have no memory but sometimes I wonder about her current state. This morning I awoke to a late found epiphany. This is but one life and I have had many. This particular session has left me in transition from material objectives. I have learned the difference, experienced it and live it daily; the difference between them and myself. I use to call it, stupidity. I use to call it, greed. I use to call it, self entitlement. I no longer make public my perception. My perception is the only truth I know. It is the foundation of my knowledge, it is the reason for my choices and fortunately the longer I live the greater my knowledge becomes and I become more intelligent as a direct result. This is all coming from a crazy person, mind you. I recognize you, interpret and almost always say good bye, for now.
» left by Farhana from Berkeley (31 days 9 hours ago.)
Wow! Almost all the characteristics of an old soul matches me. I'm so glad I found this article! I thought I was the only one who felt this way. And you are totally right about the energy sucking vampires. Ugh...I always seem to attract all these needy, miserable people into my life who drain all my energy
» left by Kathleen from Australia (17 days 9 hours ago.)
And after reading this article, I felt I was beginning to piece the puzzle together. I am 15 now but for as long as I can remember (even as a child) I felt I never fit in with any particular group of people (and I still don't), I felt that others even my closest friends just didn't understand me, from time to time I had discussions with my mum (who I believe is a 'mature soul') who seemed to understand me but I always knew I was different from everyone around me. During the past year as I am coming up to a major life change I have been thinking and beginning to understand more about the term 'old soul', so today I did some research.
When I was younger my mum had a reading from a tarot reader, I was away from the table and sitting near the edge of the room and after a while the reader looked over at me and knew right away that I was an old soul.
I may be young but I've had my fair share of experiences and I can relate to the term 'Energy Vampires', and the feelings of deep emotions that I know my peers could never comprehend, but once again I never fully understood why.
I can also relate to walking into a room and having the room spilt in half, people either love me or hate me even though I treat everyone equally. I was glad that I found this article as it has put my mind at ease that I am not alone in this world and that I can hopefully begin to find out who I really was and are. As irritating as being an old soul can sometimes be, I think I much prefer being one to anything else.
» left by Cheryl Lolkema from Oregon (2 days 18 hours ago.)
I have recently found out that I am an Old Soul. I didn't know what it meant but now I do and it makes so much sense. I have all of the characteristics, but I need to work on some things. I too feel like people are sucking the life out of me, even though I do not have anyone I can call a friend, they all pretend to get what they want. I haven't found any real good friends because of my busy life trying to make it in the world while making everyone else's life around me comfortable. I just want to be free.......But if I stop what will happen to them?
Thanks for the post.. I don't usually get into discussion on article sites as as i have all that stuff and a forum on my own sites so look there for more detailed stuff.. However, heres something i was inspired to point out for your consideration from what you said in the last line of your post..
They'll have to go find their own happiness, and this is spiritual learning. First law of the universe is that, fulfillment, contentment and happiness must come from within.. So perhaps you'll be setting all of you free...
Thanks again for taking the time to respond to one of my articles..
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